im sick of getting my feelings hurt and there always being an excuse why its okay to upset me. sorry but im not a robot. i get hurt and i have feelings and i look forward to things. im so frustrated with feeling like if i walked away you could care less. so prove me wrong and chase after me and show me that i actually mean something to you. otherwise im going to keep walking even if it kills me.

One year ago was one of the happiest moments in my life. Everything was finally going right and I had everything I could ever ask for. So being one year later I was goiing to type out this amazing sappy post about how im so lucky to have him still in my life and both of us still loving eachother. But Im fucking tired. Literally I need to sleep. But Im tired mostly of always getting everything i want, and then it going to shit. Last year I had my best friend, finally could call the guy I was crazy about my boyfriend, and school was going great. Now I can never sleep because I get woken up with nightmares about losing him. Literally every night unless he is here. I lost my best friend who I use to trust with everything in the world. Schools over which is good and blah. Some days im fine and happy, and some days I just hate waking up. I keep telling myself to stay positive. Hes still here, he still loves me, and i can still have hope, I see my other friends more now even though its still not the same, and I hopefully will have a new job. Just….is it so hard to find someone who can just stay with me when things get tough ughh. But anyways we will see how life goes since I told my self to do something and I know its not going to happen. Gotta love life. At least I can still wake up every morning knowing he still loves me, one year later, guess thats enough hope to hold on for now. Goodnight tumblr I need me some sleep.